Voyage

Had a mini depression episode today. Felt isolated and alone, no friends hitting me up to hang out. Not that I would say yes anyway, I already had activities planned out for myself.

I'm one of those dudes that won't show up to an event but will get pissy if I wasn't invited. Obviously the best kind of friend you want in your life.

I hadn't practiced guitar in a couple days so I picked up and jammed out to a Nightwish dvd and this felt like home to me. Truly comfortable holding the instrument while watching my favorite music be performed live. Just airdrop my ass in Finland already and let me live out my days.

Didn't do any blow this weekend! Don't you think it's funny how both doing drugs recreationally and deciding to save your money responsibly could be considered adulting? Well kids do drugs all the time but now I actually deserve and can afford them. Priorities!

The warmer weather does bring me joy. It actually wasn't that cold this year or maybe I've been listening to so much dark and melancholic Finnish metal my whole life that the cold doesn't affect me anymore. Either way, I choose warm and sunny days over winter weather any day.

Getting back into the gym grind. Not so terrifying to look in the mirror anymore. Seeing a bigger chest and longer shoulder width is always the best way to start my day.

I'm listening to the new Amorphis record for the 20th time as I write this and fuck me this is a sexy record. Wasn't even a huge fan of them until this dropped. I think it's a perfect record to present to someone if they want to try and understand heavy music from Finland.